New Development

Nobody can tell you exactly when your hair is going to fall out during chemotherapy. It is a little different from person to person and depends on the 'cocktail' of drugs you are taking. In my case they made it very clear that my hair WOULD fall out, so I've been watching and waiting to see when my time would come. Well, today I got my answer!


When I think about being bald, I imagine it will be like announcing to every human I meet that I am a cancer patient. Having hair means having anonymity, but now my appearance will share my medical status with strangers wherever I go. Maybe I'll keep my brows and lashes for a while and the hats will help with camouflage. ;) I don't like the thought of strangers looking at me with sad eyes. I will keep you posted with my thoughts as things progress.

Look at this lovely pile of hair! The white ones are coarser so they are totally stealing the spotlight. :)



Martha and I on our walk this morning. She was not cooperating for the photo. The lake was calm and the sun was shining. Yesterday we ended up going for 3 walks and were out for over 3 hours, so today she is tuckered out.

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  1. BethApril 28, 2022 at 6:16 PM

    I appreciate you sharing these things, Amy. Sometimes I forget that people have to learn about the changes that happen, as they happen. I, without any consideration, just assumed that when you go through it you magically develop this competence in managing the emotions. I didn't really consider the process of change, of finding a new equilibrium ony to have it shift again. It is sort of like working with parents of children with exceptional needs. They become so competent that all of the fear, uncertainty, and emotional labour that went into becoming an expert are hidden. Thank you for your honesty and for making the invisible journey visible.

    PS. I think that you particularly rock the slouchy hat. 😎

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  2. AnonymousApril 29, 2022 at 6:55 PM

    Ditto to Beth’s comment… we all hopefully find our inner strength when we need it… your honesty and generosity in sharing this journey makes us all wiser in ways we don’t even realize. Love you

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